I’m Trying to Get My Groove Back

For the last two and a half weeks I have felt disjointed, lost, thrown off schedule and totally absent minded. Its like I am wandering in a brain fog. Have you ever had a great schedule where you were able to get things done and felt like you actually accomplished something, even if you didn’t get everything you wanted done? Not too long ago I felt that way! Ever since we came down with colds I feel like I haven’t been able to recoup my “groove.” I’m trying to get my groove back and I’m finding it very difficult. Not just that, but before I caught a cold, I felt like I had to work really hard to get everything done and just let go of the things I couldn’t complete for the day.

I spent a good portion of November and December of last year coming up with my writing roster for 2009. I had everything planned out, and I knew exactly what I was going to write about and when I was going to post it. I even gave myself a little wiggle room just in case something happened that was more pressing or if I had to take time off from my writing. But now I look at the plans I made and none of it looks so good to me anymore! I made my plans for 2009 in 2008 when I was still living in Maryland and I think its time to get a new groove on.

Back then, Dom was with us every day and life always flowed better. I have to restructure my time since he isn’t here. I was beating myself up wondering why it seemed like I could never get everything done, and then I realized that the most supportive person in my life is 2,000 miles away from me. Also, in the last week and a half I have created two new websites; one for Simmi and one for my husband. I’ll be sure to put up a link to his site as soon as we are ready…we’re still adding some things to it.

So I need a new groove. It’s been close to three weeks since I have been able to just sit and read my favorite blogs or even done anything just for me. Tomorrow Dom will be coming home until Sunday and it will be a great time for us to sit down together and talk about a good direction for me to go in. I definitely need some guidance in that department lately, because I feel like I am running on auto-pilot. I need to figure out how I can efficiently create time between my work online, my family life, and my “me” time. I need that.

Simmi can be very unpredictable, the kids need to do things, I need to write, I need to consider business opportunities that I have been putting off and haven’t come to a decision about, the house still needs more done to it and I need to start thinking about my life as I more closely consider going to the raw food lifestyle. That is a dynamic shift and one that takes a fair amount of time each day as well. My struggle with raw foods right now is the fact that Simmi has multiple food allergies, and I can not bring nuts, legumes or seeds into the house until I know for sure that she isn’t allergic to them. If a person is allergic to peanuts, chances are they are also allergic to tree nuts and other legumes. If she is in fact allergic to other legumes and tree nuts, that cuts a significant amount of protein out of my diet and that could spell disaster. On a raw food diet, a lot of protein is not necessary, but having some is important. If she is allergic, I can have none. I’m trying to work all that out as well. And last but not least is our beautiful back yard. I haven’t even begun to plan out what we will plant as far as fruit trees, veggies or flower. I fear that I will miss the growing season this year. I know that I will still be able to plant fruit trees, but I was really looking forward to also having a nice little garden.

I am hoping to feel totally refreshed by Monday and hopefully armed with a new plan and direction for my complex and totally blessed life.

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